Why
Why
Why me
Why am I wired so differently
Thank you ADHD and Anxiety for inspiring me
You don’t define
You’re going behind me
As long as I keep this pen moving
I can escape the lions den that is my head
That voice inside
That always makes me criticize all I do
It’s always shouted screw you
I get to choose our next move
Remember no one wants to talk to you
It has to be true
No one wanted to talk to you on the first day of school
Was it the stitches on my face or the fact I was a different race
Either way they looked at me as If was a disgrace
Kindergarten is where the world started to harden him
That kid Bonel
Who doesn’t like it when people know him to well
Never one to kiss and tell
Who was told to keep all his feelings inside
Until he felt lobotomized
Told to Shove them deep in well
Why would you tell people what you think?
If I don’t my brain starts to stink
Until I splash ink all over any surface
A block of wood
Maybe a street sign
Wait let me rewind that
Let me take that back to when I started using notebooks to get strange looks
While every nook of your mind
Is trying to decide
Whether to recite Or light me on fire
Everyone’s getting tired off you preaching to the wishin well
Start by only yelling when you’re in private
Or to stop a riot from forming
Control your violent storms
Do your best to stay in your calmest form
Find a way to stop your mind from roaming
There’s nothing holding you back
Grab a book off your cluttered rack
That was one hack I used to help me find an inner muse
To let me choose what I want do with my life
Not the voice who makes me to scared to try
It’s a blessing in disguise
The hyper focus can be used like hokus pokus
It’s like witch craft when you try to learn any craft
Remember not everyone thinks like you
Live life purposely looking for a muse
Use your gut feeling
There no limit to our ceilings
Trust that good voice inside in your head that talks you out of wishing you were dead
Don’t be scared
Because you dared to be different
Only listen to those who don’t want to be kissin your coffin
Even if your pissin yourself you can say you are your true self
You’ll be able to say you tried
No matter where you decide to focus your gift
That let you to drift from the social norm
All our urges come in surges
It’s rough until we purge them
The prescriptions just hurt it
Turn it into a fuel
So you take on any duel
Rule your own mind
We all have the right to pursue our dream
It’s just a grind
That takes your mind to it’s darkest place
It will be the hardest choice you make
Most will hate because they can’t relate
Listen but don’t take it to heart
They’re always going to be tart
While you enjoy life until your an old fart
It’s getting dark in my kitchen
Be happy while your still tickin
Thanks for given this a read
I’m a go smoke some weed
