Me

This one is going out

To anybody trying to get to know me
Don’t be out asking around
Leave my family out of it

Come directly to me
Let everyone else be

I’m not trying to be an above average
Theocratic
M.C.

I’m just out here being me
Trying to hear y’all scream
Living my newly founded dream
Walking past all those who doubted me

I love all of you helping me go through this transition
I’ll make it a mission
To have you all around my kitchen

Our dumb luck gives my creativity
The final thrust it needs
To leaving you wondering

Is he legit?

Don’t let my calmness be misconstrued
This situation is far from diluted
Time is just zooting by

But while I have you here
Let me make myself clear
This art is expression of self

So sit back, relax ,enjoy a beer
Not everyone has to cheer for me
But to those who do thank you

If you find me I only ask a few simple things
Don’t let me be used
Abused
Or let my words be misconstrued
I don’t want to be executed

I’m genuinely a nice guy
But the voices in my head
They sometimes leave me wondering if I should be dead

They start spittin Rhymes
I can’t stop them from Spraying them
They constantly make it rain
flooding my brain
Driving my mental stability
Critically close
To making me CHOKE

I’ll try my best to not make you revoke my success
My life’s a constant mess

I apologize if I ruin the way you Look at me through future media
But now let me plead with ya
I don’t want to get to personal
I’ll be drawn into a portal of darkness and depression
Making me say less
But let me express a typical day in those days

I’d bust my ass making bank
Breeding pigs on the side
Not struggling financially
Always wore a smile publicily
Because somehow I became iconic

I know that sounds narcissistic to say
But listen, it’s the only reason I could
Think of why everybody always pointed and said my name

I faked a smile
so please don’t put me on trial
I’d drive to the store crying
Go inside and buy some bleach
To Char off the scars
Erase the stains
Burn the memories of pain away
Let out Scream using your name in vain


I’m not a big believer, but God? Why?
Why the near death experiences?
Did you order my disappearance?

I lost count of how many times you tried to end my life
I don’t think I’ll make it past thirty five
With the bounty you have on my head
What did I do for you to wish me dead?

You tried taking me out at birth
You came to earth and took a chunk of my heart

Left a hole
I’ m still looking for a woman to love and fill it
If you help me meet her before you kill me that would be rad

I want the chance to be a number one Dad

Carry two cute little girls
Both dressed up as a fairy’s
Showing them how to live life like Larry
I know it’s going to be scary

But my lady will cheer me up
She’ll take my hand and help me practice
For our father daughter dances

Sorry you won’t have the privacy normal kids
would

I robbed you of being able to walk down the streets without protection
Anybody that messes with them will be taught a lesson

This is what it took for me to escape the prison my demons incarcerated me in
Threw me in
Chucked the key like a needle into hay

Then came Mrs. Sow to pluck
me out
Lead the way
Sorry demons, I know you where devastated when She said “ Now write me a four page fiction story.”
I give you the glory of showing me my new passion in life

I’m in your debt
I’d be emotionally dead
A different person

What some might call normal?
Present myself a little more formal?

What’s the fun in that?

I value happiness over money now
It took my ankle going Ka plow
For that mindset to go Pow

The blasts Illuminated my oldest delusions
Rewiring my brain to hear lyrics
Let’s see if y’all feel it

The blast blew the storm clouds back to the Past
Finally shinning a light
on what I wanted to do with my life

I want to be a writer
Let the insanity inspire me
To not have to perspire
Over keeping the lights on

Focus on being number one dad
try to keep that spark in there eye
Like the first time I read one of your books
Nicholas Sparks I’m wrote a book I think you’d love

You mind giving it a look?
I’ll send it with a dove
Share the love

Either way can I’m a fan
You’re the man who inspired me to write
Last Beat

I’m done with it and have a few more In the back pocket that are pretty neat.
I’ll keep working while I wait to sky rocket to the top
Next to the elite
Farther away from the devil trying to take me back to the burning pits of my brain

Why do you want me to go insane?

Your lettuce is the only reason we get along
It lets us succeed together

It freed me
So can you please stop trying to pull me back

Instead pick a book off the rack
Give it a look

Couldn’t have done it without you
You’ll never be dead just limited
Hopefully you don’t get instigated
The deal we have now is great
Hopefully y’all can relate

Those closest will obtain a first edition signed hard copy

So will the first in line on a book tour

The rest of you please give it a read
Or who knows
You might see it on the big screen.